فلسطين

I’m sorry

Forgive me

for not doing more

sooner

before

and after the seventh

of the tenth

for not escalating

deeper
faster
higher
for not being

more present

for not doing more productive things earlier
instead of writing pointless
pieces of text
for my own comfort
in flexing
my lexical
mechanism

Forgive me for being just another enraged body at a march
just another organism
blogging
posting
watching

donating

sporadically

orderly and obediently

succumbing

to their rules

that have little to do with respect for human dignity

speaking

singing

in front of crowds

organising walks through town
to encourage

beg

the soulless ghouls
to finally take some steps
towards
action

showing up at events

None of it helped
much at all
to allay or prevent

their forced fall

their being pushed

shoved

pummeled

dragged

kicked

beaten

bludgeoned

bombed

starved

burned

frozen

drowned

gassed

snipered

smothered

pulverised

massacred

into the abyss

Here I go
again

Guilty as charged
Guilty as those for whom ignorance is still bliss

You know

and

I know
that

my ego selfishly wrote this

to make my brain and body feel just a little less

useless